Not a day goes by these days without me wondering if I should’ve just gone to college and gotten myself a cushy day job with a salary and benefits, because worrying about that shit is terrifying. I am always worried that maybe I’ve fucked up everything I could in my life, but maybe everything is perfect and I just cant see it yet. But let me be clear, these aren’t doubts I have, they’re just natural fears of the future because I dont know what’s coming, but I’ll tell you what, you’re going to have to shoot me dead before I ever give up on making photography my life. I’ve came too far, sacrificed too much to just give up…someone once told me, “Tom, you win because you fucking have too.” And that’s stuck with me ever since, because it’s the truth, I can’t afford to lose, because I have everything riding on this, and for once in my life I know that this is exactly what I want, and that no matter what happens in the future, I will face it with a camera in my hand, and I will never stop taking photos until im 6 feet under, & that’s a fact.
boston, september 14th
thomas cadrin, 2014